Because I am an extremely bad actress/the state of the board

[Karenza]

I'm supposed to be working at the moment, but sometimes the things you don't want to do need to be done first because they are eating at you. Sadly, this is one of those times.

I'm not fooling anyone that things around here are just going wonderfully, and quite honestly, it has sapped me of any creative energy I had.

I'm asking for a favor from all of you, and it is sort of a big one.

To put it simply, I need to take a few days to think.

After two years, and despite all the wonderful chats we have had, I sincerely think Stalik won't be back any time soon. He still insists it will happen any day now. But work woes, illnesses and a raft of other things have made it impossible for him to come back so far. Stalik, if you are reading this, I'm sorry my meltdown hit at the very worst time in your life with your lady coming in from Cali, but my emotions, unfortunately, hit when they hit. I know you won't likely weigh in on this. I understand that all too well.

Stalik will be MIA from chatting for about three weeks, and heaven knows I've bugged him enough this week already. I won't be getting any answers in that area for the time being.

Stephanie, sadly, tends to pull back and not talk to anyone when life hands her craziness, and I don't have any other contact details for her beyond that one email she uses for gaming. I have to assume she is gone for good unless I hear from her.

I have an email out to Ray and pray no more dark clouds have landed at his doorstep.

Where does that leave us? I have no clue. Hence me needing time to think.

To be clear:

This is not a hiatus. Keep posting. Talk to me about stuff (only days I am super busy are Tuesday & Thursdays when I tend to concentrate on work). I am trying not to close, especially with our fourth anniversary coming up next month. I'm just lost on what to do because of so many missing key players.

This is not me kicking anyone out. I want everyone back. But I have to start being more realistic and a bit less the nutter with the rose colored glasses. That got us into this mess just as much as others' crazy schedules.

Once I figure out what additional canons I want to open (mine and others), then I need to work on an ad. Chris and James, I may call on you guys for some help with this--ideas if not technical work on ads.

Thanks for your patience.  In my grand scheme to keep as many doors and windows open for those absent at the moment, I let the ship tip a bit. I hope you can accept my apologies on that.

[Karenza]

And, to be absolutely clear--I am opening canons of my own and select ones from those who have left or are away at the moment. I am not asking for across the board cuts on characters. 

[Spiral]

I understand that life comes first. I hope everything will be OK for the key players in the future.

The RPG isn't shutting down, is it?

[Karenza]

Sorry I didn't post to you sooner. Life was a bit crazier this week than I had hoped. Hanging laundry takes more time than I remember. Oh, I can't wait for my dryer to get fixed tomorrow!

No, we are not shutting down if I can help it. We are coming up on our fourth anniversary in a couple of weeks, and I am already thinking about the fifth next year.

It just gets very frustrating to plan things out and have them stall because so many people are away, and unfortunately it hit me a bit harder than it should have. James, very kindly, has said he will jump into the Major Domo/Erinyes plot soon. And that reminds me....I have some bad guys to go app.